Letters

Dear Weather,

Please go away. I hate the cold and more then that I hate that the cold means I am that much closer to going back to work!

Love,

Me

Dear October,

Where did you go? Its all happening too fast...slow down!

Love,

Me

Dear Noah,

You are three. Like REALLY THREE! You are such a sweet, fun, crazy and precious boy BUT you are a three year old mess at the same time. You keep me on my toes. You are full of your own opinions and are more independent then a 16 year old. You remind me daily that you are a big boy now and do not need my kisses, but that keeps me in check that I hope this stage will indeed pass soon. I love you dearly even when I don't know how we will survive some of the meltdowns.

Love,

Me

Dear Grace,

Come back home mommy misses you so much (yes even at 3 in the morning!)

Love,

Me

Dear Rangers,

Please win the World Series tonight so I don't have to endure another night of floor pacing and jibberish talk.

Love,

Me

Dear Sleep,

I miss you!

Love,

Me

Dear GNO,

I can not wait for you. I need some time to be away and enjoy my girls! Please hurry!

Love,

Me

Friendships

My girls...
My Ang...
My Kimmy...

Don't walk behind me; I may not lead. Don't walk in front of me; I may not follow. Just walk beside me and be my friend.
Albert

Lately I have been really thinking about the word friendship and what it means to me. To me a friend is someone who listens and is there for you when you need them the most. They do not judge, they do not use you for their own good, they do not tell others what you have trusted in them the most. Almost all my life I have been better friends with men then women. I always said it was because men are not drama...they tell you like it is and you know straight out what they are thinking about stuff. I like those qualities in a friend. I don't want drama and overreaction. I don't want to be competitive in a friendship... thats not what its about. As I say that I find myself becoming friends with more women as I grow older.

I have a few VERY good friends that I trust with everything I am. One of those people just happens to be related to me...My sister Kimber is my rock. She is there for me whether I'm having a good or bad day. She has been there through all the major milestones of my life. We went to college together. We joined a sorority together. She was by far the best roommate I ever had. We just click and that's not very common when it comes to your family. She was there when I met and married the love of my life. And she was there through the births of both my children. I am so blessed that God let me have her as MY sister and best friend.

The other person I trust with everything that I am and love more then most is my best friend Angela. I meet this lively redhead the first day I started my first job in Dallas. I always joke with her that I went home that night and told Daniel I met a girl who I would NEVER be friends with. Who would have thought that we would become inseperable. We love to travel together and try to take at least one trip a year somewhere fun. She is part of my family and someone I hope to always have in my life. She is now further away then ever before and we are going to have our first year of no travel but I know through it all we with stay as close as we were before.

I have meet some great women since I have moved back to Albuquerque and feel the older I get the more I can put myself out there to trust. Im looking forward to enhancing these friendships for years to come. And I never thought I would say this but... I love my girls!!!

Opening my eyes...

I was reading a blog yesterday (obsessivly I might add!) about a women who lost her 4 month old baby to SIDS. This made me start to think and really appreciate what God has given Daniel and I. For the last couple of months we have had to lay in bed with Noah to get him to fall asleep. He was such a good sleeper until recently. We don't know if it's the transitions he has had to make in the past couple months (going to preschool, getting a new family member, sophia starting to be more active and wanting to play with him) but it is wearing on me and Daniel. Well last night was no different BUT after reading the blog yesterday I started thinking that really who cares if I have to lay with him...its not going to be forever! And in a couple years he's not going to want me to even hug him. So last night for the first time in months I relished in the time we had. We talked about what our favorite thing of the day was (his was getting to go to a wedding and dance...mine was getting to dance with my little love) we talked about what we were going to do on Sunday (fo fo's party) and then he layed there and cuddled. My heart was so full I thought it might burst! I hope to continue to remember and cherish the time I have with my kids because I know how fast it goes and no one knows what tomorrow will bring. P.S. Getting up with my baby girl at 3 in the morning wasn't so bad either :)

The start...

I love reading blogs especially those of my friends. This has inspired me to start my own. I want this blog to be a place that my kids can go back and read about how their mommy was when they were young...the good and the bad. I want them to know how much I love them but how hard it is to be a parent at times. I hope I can protray to them a little bit of me....